Adoption Update

Good news and bad news.
Bad news first...well, maybe not bad but a little disappointing. We haven't moved up on the list at all since last time I checked. We were hoping we had at least moved a few places but nothing this time.
The good news is that they are already showing our profile! There is one birthmom who is trying to make her decision right now and has our profile as well as a few other profiles that she is looking at. It was a surprise to us and the reality of it all kind of sunk in. We could literally get a call any day and all of a sudden be parents! The other reality that hit me was that the birthmom is a real person with a real decision to make, a hard, heart-breaking, gut-wrenching decision. I have gotten emotional about it a few times and can't think about it too much or I just cry. My heart goes out to her, whoever she is.
If you think of us, and her, please pray. We know that the chances of her choosing us are just as big as the chances of her not choosing us and I would never pray that God make her choose us. I have just been praying that she will have complete peace about whomever she chooses. That God would lead her heart to the people He has chosen to be this baby's parents. We don't want to be chosen if it isn't what God wants and we know that He has a plan for this baby and that is the most important thing. It is exciting to think we may get a call but only if it is in God's plan and timing. So we will just keep waiting and praying and believing and living and trust that if this baby is to be ours God will guide this young woman to us and if we are still to wait then He will guide her heart towards another couple.
Still, yay that they are showing our profile and yay that it really truly is going to happen one day! I can't even think about finally holding my baby without just crying and know that it will be a joyful yet heart-breaking time.
So thankful I can trust that God has it all under control.