Thursday, August 18, 2011

Promises


I think God is trying to drill something into my head and heart. I had a song going through my head, just a couple of lines, and it wouldn't stop and was really starting to annoy me! I finally stopped one day and thought about the lines and what was really going through my head over and over again. This was it..."God says yes to His promises, take Him at His word". Of course then I felt really silly and wondered why it took me so long to clue in! I have been struggling the last while with all of this waiting and hoping and wondering as I watch a number of friends and some family adding to their families as pregnancies are announced and babies are born. I have to not let myself dwell on it at all or I will just sit and cry and get depressed and wonder if God has forgotten about us. When I realized the words that had been going through my head over and over again I had to kind of laugh but also thank God for the reminder.
Today I went and saw my Gramma and, as I do when I go see her, I was reading her a devotonal for the day and what was it on? Yep! God's promises! One of the verses was 2nd Corinthians 1:20 - "For as many as are the promises of God, in Him they are yes..." The devotional talked just a little bit about God keeping His promises in His good time.
I wonder if God is trying to remind me somehow that He keeps His promises?!
All of my life all I have ever wanted is to be a wife and mom. I am blessed to be the wife of an amazing man of character and strength and am so thankful that we are here for each other as we long to add to our family. Your prayers right now would be hugely appreciated as the waiting and longing and even the hurting grow stronger. We know God has a plan. It's just really tough to see other people's dreams and hopes of adding to their family come true as we enter our fifth year of waiting. Pray for me especially? Pray that I don't let myself fall into depression but live life to the fullest right now. I struggle sometimes with wondering what I am doing with my life and even in some ways feeling useless as I wait to hold our baby in my arms. I am sure God has things He wants me to do as I wait and so join me in praying as I try and find out what that is and seek His direction. Perhaps I am just to stay quiet before the Lord and wait, perhaps I should be out and about and keeping super busy with...something...I just don't know right now. Any and all prayer for both of us would be so appreciated. We can't wait to share our answers to prayer and excellent news with all of you and thank you so much for travelling through this with us.
I did get an update from the agency at the beginning of this month. We are #21 on the waiting list now. At least we are moving up! That is encouraging! Once we are in the top 20 our profile will hopefully be going out more and being considered. 
We look forward to God's promises being fulfilled in His way and in His time. 
But oh may it be soon!

Monday, August 1, 2011

Blessings upon Blessings!

"Count your blessings name them one by one..."


I did that the other day. Counted my blessings. Chad and I went on a much needed and anticipated vacation and we had blessings from beginning to end. Count with me!...


1) We were able to get the same days off work.
2) We were able to book the flights we wanted.
3) We booked Finlay at the kennel and he had wonderful care. He is a favorite there so that helps!
4) We stayed at the hotel we wanted to stay at. Originally we were only able to book a room with two queens but were put on a list for a king bed suite and ended up getting that. Just what we wanted and it had an amazing view!
5) Our flight was on time and there were no problems whatsoever.
6) We rented a car through Budget and got an almost brand new car that was loaded with leather, air, back up camera, sunroof, you name it and it pretty much had it.
7) We got to our room that first day and there was a beautiful flower arrangement waiting for us that one of our youth families had sent up.
8) The weather was amazing! It was the nicest weather they'd had this summer so far. It didn't rain at all and we only had to wear our jackets once.
9) We celebrated our 5th anniversary by having a wonderful dinner out only to return to our hotel room to find a rose petal turndown with the robes on the bed, rose petals leading to the bed, wonderful herbal tea and the lights turned down.....
10) The next night there were chocolate covered strawberries...
11) The next night there was raspberry sorbet (wow was it good!)...
12) The next night it was another rose petal turndown. All arranged by the same family who sent us the flowers! We were so overwhelmed by it all! I cried of course. Felt so humbled and so incredibly blessed that they would do something like that for us.
13) We saw beautiful sights.
14) We spent some time in the forest and by water and scrambling on rocks and it did this BC girl's heart good! I felt so much more me than I have for a long time.
15) We just had such a good time together. It was wonderful to be together with no outside stresses and just concentrate on each other.
16) I had been squirreling away cash with almost every paycheque and we were able to pay for almost every meal, some entertainment, Finlay's kenneling and groceries when we got back with that cash. Felt so good to not put it all on a credit card!
17) The kennel where Finlay stayed made a mistake when they charged us and didn't charge us enough. I went in the next day to pay the rest and the owner was so surprised that I did that. She said no one ever tells her when she doesn't charge enough and she wouldn't let me pay the rest! I guess honesty pays off. :)


I am sure there are many more blessings that I missed but those are definitely the ones that stand out. We wish we could have stayed longer and it was tough to come back and get right back into the same old routine and not see each other all the time but it's our life and we are thankful for it. 


It was a vacation that touched my heart in many ways and one I won't forget. In our hearts we are so hoping and even anticipating that it will be our last big vacation as just the two of us. We are hopeful that the next time we will have a baby with us. Scary to put ourselves out there and hope that much but oh we are hoping!


Here are a few pictures from our vacation...


The view from our room. We were able to watch the sunset from there!


Us :) I think this was my favorite day of the whole trip. 

Sitting on some rocks by a little waterfall. It felt so good!