In His Time

I have been doing some thinking over the last few days of the twists and turns my life has taken. Those who have known me for a long time know that it was always my heart's desire to be married by the time I was 21 and then have lots of kids. Well, I got married at 33 and thus far we haven't been able to have children. So not how I had planned it! You know what though? I am so thankful! I love my life. I am so thankful for all of the blessings and all of the twists and turns and for where I am today. I am so thankful for the love that Chad and I share. I used to imagine what it would be like to be married and to love and be loved but never was I able to imagine someone like my Chad or to imagine a love like ours. Yes, I had to wait a long time for him and at times I would grow discouraged and wonder if God had forgotten about me, but I always chose to put my trust in God and believe that He knew best and would bring it about all in His time. 


I wouldn't change a thing about how and when everything has come about in my life. Even the tears and hurt and heartbreaks. They are all part of what has brought me to today, made me the person I am, making me the person I am supposed to be. I have learned and grown and been challenged and I know that as time goes on I will continue to learn and be challenged but I am finding that it isn't taking me quite as long to learn. I am finding that I am so much more willing to let God be God and to trust that His timing is perfect. It is so much easier to go through life knowing that God is taking care of me, of my husband, of our families and home and puppy. I keep seeing Him in little things, and the more I acknowledge Him in the little things the easier it is to trust Him in the big things. May I just keep growing and trusting and learning!


For years I had a song picked out that I wanted sung at our wedding. When our wedding day finally came around it fit even more perfectly than I ever thought it would and it has become the theme song of my life...


In His time, in His time
He makes all things beautiful, in His time.
Lord, please show me every day, 
As You're teaching me Your way,
That You do just what You say,
In Your time


God would have us know, time makes all things grow
He will make it so in His time
And by His great hand, all our life is planned,
We will understand,
In His time


In Your time, in Your time
You make all things beautiful, in Your time
Lord, my life to You I bring,
May each song I have to sing,
Be to You a lovely thing,
In Your time


He truly does make all things beautiful in His time, and His timing is always perfect, even when we think He has forgotten. He makes of our lives a beautiful melody, when we allow Him to.